blah.  summer school is gettin tedious.  thought maybe i’d be able to focus more….but no, i think i’m doomed to be apathetic forever.  ok, so its not like i don’t care…i just get bored.  sad thing is, there’s absolutely no reason why i should be bored.  in theory, i enjoy learning.  i tend to retain information pretty well, long term, at least, and i also tend to relate whatever it is i’m learning to “life” in some form or another.  so what’s the problem with grades and school?  i have no idea.  its just BLAH.  its strange, i actually kinda like studying.  maybe i’m just lazy and hate doing assignments.  i don’t think i’ve ever really been one for structure.  

funny thing is, i’m taking a creative writing class that isn’t structured at all, really.  sure we have exercises to do that focus on certain areas like dialogue or descriptions and what not, but the idea is that everyone can pretty much interpret the assignment the way they want.  the only catch is, the professor seems to have a specific idea of what he wants before we turn the assignment in.  So ultimately, while his criticism is constructive, it feels biased and i feel like i have to write towards a grade and please him rather than myself.  but i dunno…there’s always a way around it…i just lack the motivation to figure it out.  hah.  i’m a wonderful student. 

umm..yeah…so ppl tell me my entries are too long.  so i’m stopping now.  can’t wait till the weekend.  home/beach.